Being 19

Well it’s now April 15th… I’ve been 19 for well over a month, and i feel… No different whatsoever… Whoop-de-doo… lol
So far i’ve been to visit 2 universities, been to a few rock nights and been told that a few people fancy me… All of which has made my life more complicated than it already was, so the analogy would be that my life used to be like 2+2 and now it’s more like 2×2… You get the same answer, it’s just that little bit different… hehe…
The Uni visits were useless… Well, insofar as helping me decide between the two… Preston uni looks like poo, but the course tutors kick-ass… However Wolverhampton looks like it’d be easier for me but the city itself sucks…
The rock nights have made sure that i now know that Alice is actively avoiding me, which makes it awkward for myself and my friends that also are friends with Alice, what this means is, although my friend Joel has had a week’s worth of parties, i’ve not been able to attend any of them, for fear of coming into contact with Alice and making her feel bad… Joel has said that i’m too nice, but i guess it’s my fault in the first place (not that i wanna go into all that again)… The end result of all this is just more anonymity between the two of us…
Right, what else was there… Oh yeah, people fancying me… I don’t need that now, not at all… I don’t believe in love, but i also don’t believe in sex for the sake of sex… So i’m stuck… I can only be intimate with people i have strong feelings for, and the people i develop strong feelings for are the ones who feel nothing for me… So… I don’t know… I can’t just be a regular guy around girls can i? (rhetorical question guys)
Although i do have a job, i recently went for an interview for another (i did say to some people that once i got one job i’d end up wanting more and hoarding them) it’s closer to home and there are more hours available, so it’s by far better than my current job…
Right, that’s about it…
Oh also, i went to a party or ‘shindig’ as it was called, at JaMeS’ house last wednesday… Thoroughly enjoyed myself, poker with drinking games, then multi-player Halo the next day… Managed to speak with Sean without feeling uneasy… All in all, it’s been pretty cool this last month… Fingers crossed that the month of May comes just as easily as April is goes…
C *keep the peace or get so drunk you don’t remember putting socks over the paws of your dog and letting it loose on highly polished laminate flooring*