Bad Carl(ish) Day

Wednesday

Listening to: Nothing, Shock horror!

To be honest i can’t remember much of this day…

Went to college at 9:15am…. Bollocked for being late, obviously… I somehow ended up with Neil, then managed to see Alice, Vicky and Rachel, ate a really nice cookie type thing… Met Sonya… Forgot what day of the week it was, went back to Neil’s had 3 cans of beer and a chicken tikka masala…

(what a wierd day)

Thursday

Listening to: 3 Doors Down – Away From The Sun

Early wake up, no1 likes me at the moment cos i was thick and didn’t go to sign-language…

College for a mock sociology exam which i hadn’t revised for… I must have failed miserably on it, i didn’t do the last two questions in any detail at all and because i didn’t revise i had no idea what i was talking abou anyway… Went home for lunch to find th conservatory people were back! Gah to them… Mum came home and ordered me to make little invites for a ‘party/get-together’ for close family… she wouldn’t let me joke around, which sucked… i wanted to put ‘you are invited to a get-together for Carl’s 18th, there will be tea, biscuits and polite conversation’ it wasn’t that bad, but mum insisted on something boring… Didn’t go to GCSE maths cos Vicky is in Manchester so there’d be no1 to talk to, which meant i’d have to do work.. Met Sonya at like 5ish, caught the bus into town with Neil… Got a bus back from town at like 6:40pm cos the kendal was late due to a fatal accident on the bye-pass… Anyway, Sonya came back here with me and we stayed till 10:30 again… Was fun… took her back to town where we met Magic who stunk of alcohol, but it was his birthday… Listened to 3 Doors Down on the way home and had a major burst of happiness tho i don’t quite know why…

Carl (keep the peace or change your name to Alex)

Short (ish) Post

Sunday

Listening to: Ocean Colour Scene – Songs For The Front Row

Went to Mike’s at like 3pm, so i can only suppose I just lazed around my house until then… That’s about it for sunday i think… I slept too… erm… yay?

Monday

Listening to: OCS – SFTFR

Erm Went to Neil’s after completing my Philosophy essay… So got there about 11:30ish… Caught a bus with him into town, we split and arranged to meet two hours later… Turns out that cos i was off college all of the week before the half term, i missed out being told of the change in times of my course, so i was 2 and a half hours late… Wasn’t impressed… Anyway, i went back to meet Neil and skated at the park and Dalton till about 6ish… Went to Neil’s till about 10:30pm then walked home as it started to snow, which was pretty cool…

Tuesday

Listening to: OCS – SFTFR

Another late start, 1:30pm to sociology so just bummed around at home again… Tried to do some work and failed… Got there, yelled at for being late… When i was done, i went into town, met Neil and Adam Coakley and we all sorta chilled till like 5ish… Went to Coake’s and picked up like 16 cans of Carlsberg… Took them all back to Neil’s and i drank like 1 of them before going home and sleeping off the aching muscles that i still had from skating the day before…

‘k i’m done…

Carl (keep the peace or walk in the middle of the street in a thunder storm)

W.T.F.S (what the f*ck, saturday?)

Wednesday.

Listening to: Big Dismal – Believe

Boring day really, just chilled with Michaelous… Was cool tho cos we talk about random sh!t…

Thursday

Still listening to it…

Erm again chilled with Mig cos i didn’t have anything else planned till like 4pm. Went to town at like 3:30pm but got the ‘wrong’ bus (i fancied exploring)… Ended up in Morecambe, got to town at like 4:15pm ish… Met Sonya and did an errand for dad (the washing machine works fianlly!)… We decided ir was bloody cold in town and so we came back to my house till like 10:30pm. Neil had asked me to meet him so i had to let Sonya get a bus back to town on her own :(… Was in hysterics with Neil tho, was a great time, walked home at 3:00am…

Friday

Still listening to it…

Woke up by my sis at 9:00am cos she wanted me with her while she chose her dress for her big leaving ball at ripley (she doesn’t trust mum)…Problem was, the one i thought she looked best in (and happiest wearing) they don’t have in stock in her size… Which sucked to the max… Anyway, went to asda and purchased lots of food and sweets to cheer Rach up… Rock night was cool, Becki played sooo many good songs in a row and i danced so much… The night was made much better by Alice not ignoring me, the fact that Kyle is kinda ace in general and Sonya… Sonya stayed at mine and i kipped on the floor, which i expected to be uncomfortable but i slept so well down there…

Saturday

Listening to: Evanescence – Fallen

Chilled with Sonya all day, went to town at like 3:30pm with her and literally chilled in town with her… Met Vikki and Neil then got a bus home with Neil at like 6:45pm… Came home then went to Mikes and i’ve been there till now watching him play adicctive internet games…

Carl (keep the peace or say the word ‘proverbial’ too many times in one day)

F.S.S.M.T. (hehe)

Friday

Listening to: Blink 182 – ‘self titled album’

Went to town with my mum, an unexpected turn of events occured there, i got bought some new stuff, clothes, for the first time in an absolute age… The last time i got something new was like september last year, maybe before that… Anyway i got a seriously cool pair of jeans and a new hoodie which i’m a chuffed with, tho felt guilty cos together they were like £86, but mum was like ‘yeah sure, i’ll pay that much.’ I wondered if she’d been hit in the head with something… Went to asda and got some alco-pops for Neil cos i owed him some…

Saturday

Still listening to: Blink 182 – ‘self titled album’

Saturday… erm… it’s been so long my memory has been wiped… I assume i did bugger all before heading off to Neil’s to give him the alco-pops, i got invited to a party while i was there… So we chilled then set off with much alcohol, which, once we got into town we decided wasn’t enough so we bought like forty quids woth more… Then Neil proclaimed that this party would be much more fun if there were illigal intoxicants there… So we went on a treck back to bolton-le-sands to procure some… Arrived like 2 hours later than we said we would, unluckily for us, cos as we got there the party was beggining to wind down cos some drunken person had thrown up on and in all the shoes… However me and Neil started it up with our fresh wave of alcohol and ‘substance’…. I have no idea how trashed i was cos there are very few moments of the night that i recall… From which i presume that i was wasted… One good thing about being so trashed is that you can walk home and not feel the pain in your legs, which is what i did at like 5am… Anyway, back to the party, there was weed in dolmio sauce, there was absynth and there was aftershock, all of which were consumed by me… Pissed off sonya with some late night txts cos she needed to get up early in the morning… oops..

Sunday

Still listening to: Blink 182 – ‘self titled album’

Woke up at 11am after like 5 hours sleep, writhed around in bed feeling like utter poo for an hour… At 12pm i got up and just bummed around my house cos Neil and James were probably hungover and in town, Mike was in oxford, and Phil had Sean round so none of my friends were accessible… Leaving me to just go on the PC for the majority of the day… Slept like a baby on sunday night to catch up with the sleep i missed out on, but not before re-gaining a friend, Rachel T, the person i pissed off by being annoying has decided, most forgivingly, to be my friend again… Which i was overjoyed about… I have promised Katy that i will not be an insensitive prick to her friend again…

Monday

Still listening to – yeah you know who…

Had arranged to meet Sonya at 3pm but she missed her bus that she got up at like 8am to catch… So we re-arranged for 4pm instead… Met in town wandered about for a bit while i purchased a washing machine drive belt for my dad… Came back to mine and had dad complain that i was teaching Sonya sign language the wrong way… That was funny for like 3 seconds… I got a valentines card! I was well impressed… I gave her my really shitty hand made one… It was still in pencil and had no colour on what so ever… Anyway spent till like 11pm with her cos i took a bus with her back to town to be with her when she caught her last bus home… Met my sister, Tara, and Jake… Then after Sonya got her bus i got my last bus home with Charlotte, who i hadn’t seen for like 3 days… lol… Chatted with her and walked her home, which isn’t more that 1 min from my house… Slept well again…

Tuesday (if you haven’t figured out the name of this post, a letter for every day)

Yes, Blink is still playing… Nearly the end of the album so I’ll probably listen to CKY next 🙂

Tuesday… yes i remeber tuesday… honest.. I do it just took me a while, i was at home for most of it… Yeah and it was yesterday too… Met Alice in town at 1:30pm ish… maybe later… Walked around town with her for a bit re-ordering that damn drive belt cos it wasn’t the right one… And getting hearing aid batteries for my father, Alice knew the guy behind the counter which was cool… He likes Naruto! yay!… Walked Alice home then went to the bus station and met Becky and Tanya… Tanya walked home and Becky nicked my skate board and almost took some lady’s ankle out with it… Took her to liquid car park so she could get a lift home… Then got a bus myself… Mike came round in the evening and stayed tll about 2:30am cos thats when i fell asleep and he kindly and quietly left me to sleep… Woke up to a txt from Rachel T asking where my flirty ass was… I presume she thinks that the rest of me isn’t flirty… Anyway figured that a reply would wake her so locked up and fell asleep…

THE END

Carl (keep the peace or @!#% off and die)

Alice

Well here goes… Jeez where do i begin? I guess the beginning would be preferable…

I went to a new years party to celebrate the coming of 2004 (yes i can remember that far back). I hadn’t seen the people i’d been invited by for a long time, as i’d been at college and these people were from ripley… Anyway Alice was there, with 2 guys i didn’t know on the sofa, as i remember it… They were probably both fawing over her… Anyway me being myself, got drunk and somehow got her number and a kiss (go me!) for new years… Asked her to tell me her problems as i was too wasted to remember them in the morning and figured she needed an ear… After the party i txt her and talked with her on MSN… Being my usual overly flirty self i presume… We met up again at Fraya’s party and i ended up sleeping about 3 feet away from her due to my reserved judgment on whether she liked me or not… We cuddled on Fraya’s sofa come the morning and hangovers galore… More MSNing and txting later and i’d decided i really fancied her… I walked to hers one night at like 1am to see her cos she was lonely i slept with her (in the non sexual way) in her double bed for the first time and i figured that i must be in love if i’m doing this for her…  Problem with this was, she was hung up on my mate, James and had been since roughly September the year before… Annoyingly he didn’t show much interest in Alice until i started doing so… Guess there had to be some sorta complication… Alice, of course, was torn between one of the best looking guys that I know and myself… Unsurprisingly she chose the former, leaving me kinda heartbroken and depressed, so much so that i kinda stopped going to college and caring what happened to myself… It reached a peak at Peter’s joint b’day party for him, Tim, Leigh Harmer and myself, I borke down and cried like a little wussy baby… James had asked her out just before the party (i gave him my permission, how chivilrous of him to ask, thats a true friend)… I on the other hand was the opposite of a friend, in not giving up where most people would have, i continued to be myself and flatter, confuse and upset Alice… (not neccesserily in that order) By basically trying to win her over, which i guess i did, cos about a month later she broke up with James, tho that was partly cos they barely spoke… I asked her out on April 21st cos i was gonna ask her out for her b’day 2 days later but figured that 1) it would be a shite present and 2) i couldn’t wait… I was in love and there was no denying it, i’d do basically anything for her… Unfortunately because i’m Carl (king of morons) i screwed up barely even a month after asking her out by saying that an old ‘flame’ of mine had reindled some emotion in me and i wasn’t sure who felt more strongly for… Of course it was Alice, but my confusion in the first place was stupid and upset her… She forgave me which was fantastic… I can’t believe how stupid i was to drop what i had… I continued to walk to hers at like 1am and such if and when she asked me to, i dropped college to see her before i got thrown out… Basically if she wanted to see me i’d make it so she could… That was ok untill i stopped doing it as much, i got lazy and complacent about how much she cared… I think this is where our relationship hit a major downfall, as i started getting complacent i expected Alice to come and see me more often, which she didn’t cos she has a phobia of busses… This is where it gets hazy, where it wasn’t so clear cut whether what i was doing was for my benefit or for hers… But after 2 months of being a shit and just rolling with what was happening i broke up with Alice… This was just before christmas… And since then there’s been quite a few tears shed by her tho half of them i’m not entirely sure what they were for… She wrote me a letter a while back, it’s like 3 sides of A4, however i only read it like 2 hours ago, maybe less, it opened my eyes… Alice said that there wasn’t much new stuff in there but hell there’s so much emotion in it i was afraid it’d burst into flames in my hands… It inspired to write this and this is fuck all of what happened between us two… Eight months is a long time to make memories and there are so many instances that i’ve probably mis-laid in my mind and things i’ve forgotten to mention in this thing… I spent from like 5pm till 10pm with her today (well yesterday now as it’s gone midnight) and we just talked and joked like good friends, i wish we’d have done that when we went out, maybe things would be different right now… I understand tho, i’m not gonna say that after all this that i’m ignorant to the way she is… I can always wish tho right? Anyway, unfortunately this can’t be set in stone cos the stone mason would die before he finnished chipping this out of the rock, but it’s just to say that there’s no way i could forget her… I was crazy about her and if there was one person who i knew that didn’t know that i was then i’d have to ask if they knew me at all…

Hell I’m knackered now… But I love Alice, as a friend… She’s just great… Pity it took this long after we broke up for us to get to this stage, and to be honest i’m not sure if we’re there just yet… One day we will be and i can poke her in public without being accused of ‘playing with her affections’ or being a man-whore… *gives Alice a huge hug*…

Thanks to Neil for trying to keep me sane and not to go rushing off to her side when it was best for her to cope without me…

Thanks to Rosie for not hating me for being such a tit to her little sister

Also to Rachel and Vicky for Being friends to both me and Alice and not just hating me for her sake…

I feel like i’ve just won a Grammy (tho i’d use it as a paper weight on Alice’s letter if i did)

Carl

Bed-Ridden(ish) Day

Thursaday

Listening to: Disturbed – The Sickness

Well couldn’t be arsed going to college felt like poo and had no money for bus… So bummed around my house for a bit… Before dieing on bed… Had several txts from Sonya telling me she’s on her way to mine… Was impressed she had the initiative to do that… Met her at the bus stop and had her round here… Mum now thinks i’m a man-whore or something but she kept herself to herself, hehe… She left mine at like 7:15pm… We got a bus into town cos i was due at the Yorkie, didn’t know Sean was gonna be there so got on the next bus home and shimmy-ed over to Neil’s… Where there was much guitar playage by Neil and much listening, done by me… Walked home at 1:00am Friday… Realised how easy it is to listen to Neil… Wondered how Laura managed to ignore him really…

Carl (keep the peace or realise, again, how shit horses are, and that they are so obsolete yet people still ride the damn things)

Many(ish) Days

Not posted, tho i have no excuse, i’m a bum…

Tuesday

Listening to: Linkin Park – Meteora

I don’t remember much of Tuesday, i think i went to college… oh yeah i remember now… I spent the afternoon after sociology apologising to Rachel Threlfall cos i was an absolute wanker to her not too long ago and laughed at her when her love life took a turn for the worse… She made me feel like sh!t which was well deserved and my apology fell flat on it’s personified face… I think i just chilled at mine after that and felt sorry for myself… busied myself posting on Shebel Reep and PGCC, annoying El Seanio in the process… Sleep being the healer of all things i did some…

Wednesday

Listening to: Big Dismal – Believe

Walked to college via the coast… Took an hour and my feet were wet and my hair had more knots in than a cub scout knot tieing competition… Was 35/40 mins late so couldn’t attend due to a new rule that if you’re more than 15 mins late you can’t go into your class… So wandered into town met with Sonya at like 2:00pm we walked at talked till 7:20pm man thats like 5hrs, i didn’t even notice to be honest… Chilled at home feeling ill cos i’d walked in the cold for the last time without feeling ill… Which meant i didn’t attend my sign language class… not that i’m too arsed, we were getting filmed and i’m camera shy… Aranged to meet Sonya again but that failed cos she’s ill too… Slept cos sleep is better than illness and awakeness…

Carl (keep the peace or scrape the proverbial ‘shit’ off the walls after it hits the fan)